we wrote stories in the sand
and sang songs to the ocean as
she crashed over us
first lapping at our toes but slowly inching up
over our heels and onto our calves and over the knees
until finally engulfing our minds--
oh god how beautiful it is to let the mind go--
that flame which breathes
heavily at midnight as it chases after promises
broken by all of the cosmic dynamos
that flurry by at the speed of light
and shriek a kind of holy fanfare which
ignite the will to go on and
create idealistic worlds where we all
chase after the sun within our own little
universes and decide to catch whatever it is that we dream

//

After a little hiatus from blogging/YouTubing/Instagram-ing/doing anything the least bit creative or enjoyable, I am happy to say that I am making my comeback right here, right now (with some really bad poetry written at 12 am.)

 Tonight was really one of those nights when all of the stresses of life seemed to just drip away from my soul. I went to the beach with some friends (whom I have not seen in quite a while due to college). Familiar faces and laughter, the pink sunset, the cool breeze, and the icy cold water which seemed cleansed both my body and my very soul, helped soothe me in ways that I cannot even explain. For months, I have felt so trapped in my present reality. All I could think of was school. And finishing school. And grades and finals and SAT scores and colleges and my depleting motivation--

I didn't have the time, energy, or necessary sources of inspiration, to do anything else, no matter how much I wanted to. I have so many ideas and so many things I want to share, but didn't know how to go about doing them or where to begin. I felt confined. //

Thankfully yesterday was my last day of exams, and today I was able to go out and just feel the "real world" for the first time in a while. Even doing something simple, like going to the beach, revealed so many secrets and beautiful things that the Earth has to offer. This life never ceases to amaze me, and I never want to lose that. I never want to become so overwhelmed with work that I forget to look around at people, places, and things that actually make the world beautiful. Because it really is these things which motivate me to be creative and artistic and to make my life the kind of beautiful that I want it to be.


I'm so looking forward to summertime, because to me it symbolizes this promise of adventure, and also a sense of freedom. I talked today about trying some new things (like, surfing. which would be really cool), and I'm honestly just looking forward to what this year brings. For the first time in a while, I'm excited about things, and I feel motivated to continue to create.

I encourage you to take the time to just sit, and listen to the rain, or the wind, or waves of the ocean, and look at leaves or shells or the patterns within rocks, and just admire all of the artistry that God put into his creations. There are so many beautiful things in the world and some of your best inspiration will come from going back to the basics, and feeling it all at once, in one shocking wave. //